Megan R.

I have always had a difficult relationship with my body. I always found something about it to dislike. Something to obsess over. When I gained weight that was beyond my control, that was the final straw of my mental health. I stopped wearing makeup. I avoided mirrors as much as possible. I would cringe or make faces when I'd pass them. Finally, my body started to change to what I wanted to see. People started telling me I was pretty. I started wearing makeup again. Rarely. But it was a step. Then Debbie posted a model call/session give away. I never win anything, and I didn't figure I was attractive enough to be chosen anyway. So I filled out the questionnaire,  with the most unfiltered, unhinged answers she's probably seen in a minute. Somehow she picked me. I wanted to chose outfits that I could hide in. Still feel attractive, but I wanted to hide. Hide all my insecurities.

With each laugh, smile, and shutter click from her camera Debbie worked at not only pulling the best pictures out of me, but tearing down this negative self image I've had my whole life. Brick by brick, click by click, I started to believe her. Maybe I am beautiful? Then when she showed me all my pictures at the reveal.....it was surreal. I was speechless and slightly overwhelmed. She was worried I didn't like the images, because of how quiet I was....but the truth is I was in shock.

Who was this woman on the screen? She looked like everything I'd always wanted to be. She looked like she could command armies with her eyes, and cast pure magic from her lips. She looked seductive,  mysterious, and a little dangerous. But the hardest part for me to let sink in.....she was me! And now, since my session my head is higher, my smile wider, and I'm grateful. I already have my next session on the books,  and I can't wait to see how it goes. If you ever get the opportunity to see yourself through Debbie's camera lens, take it. Let her break down that wall that you use to hide. I'm not hiding anymore.